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Ingrid L. Taylor

Grief

I sweep your lyrics into the corner where they build jungle gyms out of cobwebs. I have eaten my last bowl of crackers, spooned the last of the peanut butter from the jar. At 2 a.m., the bed sinks beside me with your weight, but when I look no one is there. My reflection ghosts me. I am safe if I keep my hands and feet inside. I put my hands and feet inside the music box in my chest, where I also hide your lyrics. Some are missing. I keep all my bones inside me, even though I have nothing left to stir the soup with. I have endings stacked on every shelf. I pile the books on the floor to make room for them. I don’t know which are more precarious—they all want to tumble. Watch this! they say, and I smile and nod as they cartwheel across the floor. Now I have beginnings with no endings. I invite the wind in, but it doesn’t want to stay. Things are too chaotic here, so I make the bed. When I make the bed, I find a denouement tucked under the pillow. I add it to the pile. My ribs clap like an audience at a performance that’s gone on for too long. Relieved when they can collect their coats and exit the auditorium. 

Ingrid L. Taylor is a queer disabled poet, essayist, and veterinarian. Her poetry has most recently appeared in the Southwest ReviewPoet LoreArtemis JournalCollateral Journal, and others. She received Punt Volat Journal’s Annual Poetry Award and is a three-time Pushcart nominee.

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